To cut to the chase: I am feeling very, very discouraged about both short- and long-term prospects for survival and happiness. Can't get a job here in SJDS; nothing is coming of the multiple apps for telecommute jobs; my Chicago condo sits empty, not selling, not renting, yet requiring that the mortgage be paid on time; really really want to try to get into Canada, somehow, someway, but fearing that a second attempt will only lead to further rejection, instability and loss of material resources.
If only the (living) Canadian part of my family had settled in Alberta or Nova Scotia instead of Quebec and Ontario, someone might be able to sponsor us for immigration.
Failing that, I need to figure out how to wrangle a permanent full-time job offer out of a Canadian employer (or New Zealander, or Dutch, or any country that recognizes same-sex relationships for immigration purposes) while I'm here in Central America. Or find a quick $400,000 to invest in a business. Uphill both ways, you might say.
I'm having a crisis: Despite all my education, I'm not qualified to undertake employment in any field where there are actually jobs these days. Why didn't I decide to be a mechanic or a petrochemical engineer, a nurse, a radiologist, or one of Canada's 38 "eligible" skilled occupations?
I need a source of inspiration, a glimmer of hope...please share if you've got one.
